Why Walking Away Was The Best Decision

If there is one thing I struggle with in life it is caring too much about what people think of me. I am 19 years old and I am making decisions because they are the “right” decisions according to others around me. After coming to the University of Texas to play for one of the best Volleyball programs in the country, I realized that Volleyball is not my whole life. I was surrounded by unhappy girls who were not satisfied with their lives. Slowly over the course of 365 days, I started to feel the same way. I was no longer playing Volleyball for the love of the game, but merely to get through each day. My attitude changed from determined and hungry to anxious and depressed. What was this all for? – to say I was a collegiate athlete? I was counting down the days until it was over, yet bragging to people that I played for Texas. I was so amused by the title, that my beliefs and livelihood became less important. So I decided that I am done. I am done getting punished. I am done walking on eggshells everywhere I go. And lastly, I am done getting treated with disrespect.

So, after 10 years of playing the sport I truly loved, I quit.

And let me just tell you this was the best decision I ever made. For the first time in my life, I have the option to be spontaneous. In just a few months I will be packing up my things and moving to Europe for the summer. I have four years left before I have to sit behind a desk and answer to my boss, why would I do that now?

From this whole experience, I have learned a huge lesson – get out of toxic situations. Do things that you enjoy. Do things that make you happy. And lastly, wake up each morning excited for the day. Because that’s what I have now, and it rocks.

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5 Comments

  1. Kennedy
    February 26, 2018 / 12:25 am

    So inspiring. I wish you nothing but happiness. 🙂

  2. Jesse Szymanski
    February 26, 2018 / 11:40 pm

    this is awesome! so empowering. don’t let other peoples negative styles bring you down. Best of luck in your future.

  3. Mrs. Albee
    April 6, 2018 / 3:01 pm

    May you come to know the path to the exquisite and ever illusive sweet spot where challenge, pain, growth and satisfaction collide; it is there where the greatest -and most sustainable – happiness will settle into your soul.

    Happy trails.

  4. June 16, 2018 / 7:00 am

    So awesome you stood up for yourself and for what is right! Enjoy your new life balance the next 3 years!

  5. James
    April 19, 2019 / 11:48 pm

    You are awesome and so pleased to meet you and hear your story – and so inspiring as well as sad, that there are many people/athletes which are not as strong as you to walk away with your head held high. Insane what some college athletes go through that is untold. You are so strong and this is just the beginning – #metoo is not just about sexual connotations, but also emotional and intellectual – and you have the inside knowledge and power to make a difference! Well done and so pleased have met you !!!!

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